Hello Jakarta!! I just got back from Magelang, and having a great ministering time there!! Well, i'm also feel blessed coz i got someone to accompanying me by sms-ing me everyday. It's a stupid thought, i know, but sigh.. it's just, looks like i'm in a phase where i need someone to be there, and encourage me in a way. Coz Jedi just didnt seem to be able to fill that void any longer. He had become so introvert to his own world, and doesnt care much for his surroundings. But like he always said: "I cant please everybody" Yeah rite, the only person that he can please is the only one he want to please. ????? Such a narrow way of thinking..
I wonder if Jedi really deserve my whole heart, coz I mean .. He didn't really give me his. He simply split it into 2, and established it as 2hearts, 2worlds. It's not really working for me. In my opinion, its an unresponsible system, unloyal system, unloving system.


This new guy, well, dont know if i'm serious, but i suppose he himself just think of me as a temporary fling. not much. i guess, at this point of time, it's all i need. Jedi's actions, force me to be so cruel to the world. Like i said: They just kissed the girls and made them cry..